Doctor Appointment

I had a doctors appointment this morning. It went really well! The nurse asked me a bunch of questions, took my blood pressure, had me pee in a cup, took a million vials of blood, and sent me on my way.

The really cool part about it was the "pregnancy package" I got. It is a folder filled with tons of information about pregnancy and childbirth. I was really excited about it. Also, I found out where I would be delivering, got information on the midwives that are in rotation, and discussed my most recent ultrasound. (Still have to post pics). It went great!

I really feel as though this is going to happen. I'm so positive about this pregnancy. The nurse told me that since everything is going so well, I may not have another ultrasound until 18-20 weeks. Umm...WHAT???? I was thinking around 12 weeks or so, but so be it. Can't wait to see my baby bump grow!

We decided to tell our family members. So my husbands family knows, as well as my family. I felt confident enough to tell them all. We have so much support it is unbelievable. So many people are excited about our baby. I'm still in shock at how many people have seen the inside of my uterus! My ultrasound pics have been passed around so much they're covered in fingerprints. But I love it!!

I have a secret!!!!!!!

I've been wanting to hop on here and blog about this for THREE WEEKS! But I felt the need to wait, and make sure that everything is on track and going as it should. I'm proud to say that it is!

Here's my secret.....


I'M PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It still feels weird to say that, but it's true!

One of the last times I posted, I stated that I was feeling "weird". I didn't have my normal PMS symptoms, my skin was clear, I was nice (LOL), I just had a feeling something was up.

I found out on April 17, 2010. My husband had been pressing me to test, and BAM! That second line popped right up. And it was 4 days before my missed period. I had a doctors appointment on April 22, 2010, and she confirmed my pregnancy, told me I was 4 weeks along, and scheduled me for an ultrasound. I was OVER THE MOON excited, but wanted to keep my composure. Especially after my MC in December.

I had my beta levels checked at 5 weeks 5 days, and they came in at 15,544! Which was great! Perfect for where I was at in my pregnancy. I had a repeat done 48 hours later, and they came in around 25,000. The midwife I'm seeing was a little concerned, she felt that they should have doubled. I read online that they should double in 48-72 hours, so I wasn't overly concerned, but she booked me an emergency ultrasound for Friday, May 7, 2010 at 9PM. Yes, you read that right, nine at NIGHT! It was pouring down rain, my husband and I were trying to find something to do in between the time I got off work and the ultrasound (it was closer to my job than home), so we went to see Ironman 2. Thank goodness for that! Afterwards, we went to Borders (my fav place), and just drove around. Finally, we couldn't take it anymore, and arrived at the medical center at 8PM. I drank more water, and went on in. And what do you know, they took me right back!

The tech tried an abdominal ultrasound first, she said she saw a gestational sac, but couldn't see into it. I wasn't worried, I know I was still early. So she sent me to empty my bladder for the transvaginal U/S. As soon as she put the wand in, her face lit up. She turned the screen, and there was my baby bean! I could see the heart beating away (136 bpm to be exact!). I was SO happy! I have pictures and everything.

I'll be seven weeks tomorrow, but it's WAY to late to do a 6 weeks post, so I'm just going to go ahead and do the 7 week post. Here's hoping this baby sticks!!!


7 Week Survey

How far along? 6 weeks 6 days
Total weight gain/loss: Down about 3 lbs
Sleep: Can't get enough!!!
Food cravings: None at ALL. The thought of food makes me want to hurl. I'm trying to eat though....
Best moment this week: Seeing my baby bean!!! I'm in love already!!!
Movement: To early for that
Gender: I want a girl!!
Labor Signs: Not for a LONG time!!
Belly Button in or out? In
What I miss: Being able to think about food without feeling sick.
What I am looking forward to: Actually having a baby, just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes.
Weekly Wisdom: Some things are just out of your control, so just relax and enjoy the moment.
Milestones: Crusing on through half of the first trimester! Woo-hoo! Go baby, grow baby!!

So there you have it! The reason why I've been away. I believe it's a good reason!!

I'll upload a picture as soon as I can!

Computer

Sorry for the lack of updates! We returned our previous computer in order to get a new one, but we don't pick it up until tomorrow. So, I'm stuck updating at work. I tried to update on my cell phone, but that was so frustrating, it wouldn't go through!

I'll be back tomorrow afternoon! Really don't want to post from work.

Feelin' GOOD!

I definitely woke up on the RIGHT side of the bed this morning. I feel SO good! Going to sleep really early might continue to be my new thing. When I wake up (well, I still hit the snooze button a few times), I feel great and energized. My skin is still SO clear. Wow! I just kept staring at myself in the mirror this morning in disbelief.

It was a little hard for me to go to sleep yesterday, even though I was tired, because my "headlights" were on fire. It felt like someone was sticking hot needles in them. But eventually, I was knocked out, and my husband woke me up to eat. I wasn't hungry, so I just watched TV for a bit before going back to sleep.

Another thing that has been feeling good, is that usually my PMS brings along low self-esteem. I feel ugly, hate my body, etc. But NOW, I feel SO beautiful. I love it!

Oh, and my neighbor is PREGNANT!!! I'm SO excited for her. We became good friends with her and her husband, I can't wait to watch her get a baby bump. Usually pregnancy news would make me feel sad, but not this time. See, great mood! :-)

Out of control symptom spotting!!

This TWW is really getting to my head. Yesterday, I went to bed at 6PM. I was just SO tired, and couldn't bear to stay up and longer. I was so cold when I got home, that I slept in my robe, and covered up with a sheet and comforter. Then I noticed that my legs were warm to the touch, but my body seemed so cold. I asked my DH if I felt warm to him, and he said I did. (I'm not sure if that is a symptom or not, but so be it.) Even now, I'm freezing, I wish I had a blanket!!

I'm kind of apprehensive about mentioning this next bit. But only because if AF does decide to show, I'm afraid I'll look crazy. Anyways, my, um... "headlights" have been HURTING! It feels like electricity is zipping through them, with a bit of a warm feeling. They don't just hurt to the touch, they just plain hurt. I usually have sensitive "headlights" after OV, but then it goes away. After I received my positive OPK, they were sore. Then the soreness went away, and now it's back with a vengeance.

So, yeah. My symptom spotting is OUT OF CONTROL!! I'm scrutinizing every little twinge, but it does make the TWW go by faster.

Today has been...... strange.

My left side has had a pulling sensation ALL day, and currently there is a slight burning sensation. For the life of me, I can't remember if this is a PMS symptom or not. I've had a really hard time finding things to eat lately. Nothing sounds good. I even brought some of my favorite snacks to work today, and barely touched them. Also, I've been very drained. Yesterday I went to bed around 8PM.

It might not help that I've been scouring the interwebs all day for early pregnancy symptoms (shaking my head). I think I've COMPLETELY lost it. But, that's what I do when I obsess over pregnancy symptoms.

A few of the ladies that belong to the same miscarriage forum that I do, have already gotten their post-MC BFPs. As happy as I am for them, I can't wait until I'm in the same boat!!!

I've also been experiencing slight nausea all day. It happened this morning. At times, it's hard for me to talk through it. I have to keep swallowing. I notice I feel that way when I'm hungry.

Well, that's all for now. Even if this cycle doesn't end in a BFP, at least it'll give me a glimpse of my pre-AF symptoms.

Yuck!

My husband has been asking me to make homemade meatloaf and mashed potatoes for awhile now, and it finally happened yesterday. I almost gave up halfway through preparing everything because I was SO tired! But I did finish, and everything turned out great. But you'd have to take my husbands word for it, because I didn't eat ANY! I was feeling so yucky! The thought of eating the meat just didn't appeal to me. And I woke up feeling pretty ill this morning. I kept feeling like I had to burp or vomit. But in my heart, I believe that I'm just on a ridiculous symptom spotting mission. I'm still experiencing slight side pain in my left side. It's noticeable, but not really painful. I wish I took more note of my PMS symptoms, because I think that side pain may be one of them.

I did eat a whole pack of Fruit Roll-ups at 9AM this morning. I was hungry and nothing sounded good, so I ate them. They tasted SOOO good going down, but now I feel even sicker. Bleh!!

I've been browsing some new blogs lately. I love reading new blogs and hearing other people's stories.

Good

Today has been pretty nice. I was really dreading coming in to work, but it hasn't really been that bad at all. Most of it probably has to do with my attitude, which is WAY better. I'm actually in a good mood! But very tired.

So, just for kicks, I'm going to symptom spot. I know I have a fat chance of being pregnant this month, but I don't want to count anything out, just in case.

My left side is burning, kind of feels like pre-OV pains.
Woke up yesterday and cooked chicken for breakfast. (HAD to have hot sauce with it, almost cried because I couldn't find the hot sauce.)
I TOTALLY went off meat this afternoon. Looking at it made me feel ill (this is after I'd already had a breakfast sandwich with bacon.)
Super tired
Super thirsty

I think that's about it. Really doesn't seem too convincing. I'm sure it's all PMS related. A girl can dream, can't she??

Emotional

I've been feeling very emotional lately. One minute I'm ready to cry, and the next minute I'm angry. There is just so much going on right now. Work has been really stressful, I dread going in every day. My supervisor is NUTS. I swear she's bipolar, and everyone agrees. Sadly, there isn't much I can do about it, but I love my job, so I'm just going to suck it up and try to do my best. I'm trying not to get stressed over things that I can't control.

I'm also in the process of trying to shed a few pounds. Some people think that's crazy, they consider me to be thin already, but I can't fit hardly any of my jeans!! And it's not just a recent thing, I've been gradually adding a few pounds here and there over the past two years. I just want to get back to my "comfy" weight.

Not much to update about on the TTC front. I'm still unsure whether or not I actually ovulated, and if I did we probably didn't catch that precious eggy this month. I'm actually coming to terms with the fact that this month isn't our month. And that's okay, my original plan was to begin TTC next month. This month would have just been a bonus. I did go through my pregnancy journal this afternoon, and honestly, it was hard for me. I enjoyed being pregnant SO much, it was one of the happiest moments in my life. My husband and I would stay up all night thinking about babies and picking out names, discussing how we'd tell our family. *SIGH* But one day, we'll experience that joy again. I'm just trying to take it one day at a time. I've also been trying to keep busy. I'm working on my "Baby Bucket List", which is really fun. I actually hope that I get to cross some things off of that list before "Baby V" decides to arrive.

What IS this???

I've been mean lately. And not just a little mean, REALLY mean. I'm not sure why. The way I feel now, almost feels like PMS on steroids. I'll have tears in my eyes, on the brink of rolling down my cheeks, and feel heat running through my veins, ready to go postal on anyone who is near. I don't get it.

I'm not usually like this, I have been fairly stressed at work. But I find that the smallest, most simple things are pushing me over the edge. I feel like I have PMS.

At least tomorrow is Friday, but I'm thinking about calling in and giving myself a long weekend. I think I deserve it. I don't like feeling this way, and I don't believe that anyone else likes to be around me while I'm like this either.